I guess everyone has their own problems.
& mine is none other than insecurity. (Esp about how i look)
Its not a surprise to many.
I've cried in front of my friends.
I've cried in front of the boy.
Almost everyone who i am close with knows about this.
I've tried to change. Try to control my emotions & all.
It did help actually.
But sometimes it comes back & hit me hard.
To add on, mine is not only about how bad i look.
But also, towards the people around me.
I may seems like i'm totally fine but thats not true.
I often feel down for no reason, thinking that one day someone is gonna leave me.
Someone is going to be sick of me.
& of course my biggest fear would be losing my bf.
(Excluding my family & best friends)
This makes things worse because i will start finding fault in him.
Thinking that he is ignoring me when he is just daydreaming.
& making myself feel even more upset.
I seriously think i need to stop this. Its such a bad cycle.
Need to save myself from this.
To you, who ask me whether i ever felt like going somewhere
to hide from the world. My answer is "yes". It happens too often
& it is scaring me.
Anw TGIF people.
